Friday, January 03, 2014
Dear 2014
Thursday, April 05, 2012
Reflection
I was about to just account the details of my Vancouver trip, the usual, it was for business and I was there to do a job. I wasn’t able to even have a decent tour because it rained most afternoons and if it doesn’t I was inside the conference hall doing my work. It was my first “more than 5 hours” trip, a major travel if you know what I mean. It was in North America for crying out loud. I was decided to tell the trip in the same manner that I do all the time until something changed my mind.
On the flight going home I watched We Bought A Zoo, it was on the plane’s entertainment channel. I was crying the whole time mid end of the movie to the tune of Sigur Ros’ Hoppipolla. I was crying to Matt Damon. I don’t know why at first. It could be because I was touched by the story, I miss my family, I miss my husband.
I tried not to be too emotional then it struck me, how often do we have those 20 seconds of embarrassment to have the courage flow? How often do we let ourselves go out there, make a crazy adventure, say something stupid and just act foolish? Honestly the answer, well my answer is zero. I always had it calculated. I always have a plan, not just A but up to Z.
Most of us didn’t have our normal emotional childhood, this is not about our literal childhood but the normal stages we have to go through to have the emotional adulthood. It is not being immature but something to do with emotional preparedness. We often deny ourselves of some random act of rolling with the punches, we always make sure that we thought about things and before we even commit an act we already know what the aftermath is. I often would question the word “aftermath” in these situation since they didn’t happen after but before.
I may not make any point (as always) here but what I want to happen is for me to give in to things that are not heavily thought of. That I should give to a little foolishness once in a while to see what would the real aftermath be.
So what I’m basically telling myself here is to let loose, what’s bound to happen will happen and as Matt Damon said in the movie, when you fall in love, real hard it is once in a life time. When you feel something strong towards something – be it for your career, your plan for the day or even what your heart is telling you to tweet about and write in your blog, GO FOR IT!
I like my job but I don’t see myself retiring to it. I have ups & down here and there with regards to it but I get by. But after crying a lot because of it I have decided to do it as long as I’m okay and the minute I’m not I will walk out. If I was asked yesterday if this is a possibility I’ll say no because I still have a lot of responsibility and I cannot lose this job yet but hell, I will find a new one. It may not be something as high paying but it’ll be something I love and loves me back.
I want to have a massage when I arrive in Manila, I’ll go I will not feel guilty about it anymore (this is a different story reserved for later). And if I want to tweet that you, yes you, are a fool not to talk to me, your one true friend who cares for you and actually loves you then I will (or maybe I already did).
We live in a world of uncertainties, I could be dead in a few days or while aboard this plane (knock on wood), we’ll never know. So it is okay to loosen up, let down some guard, remove the tight hair bun and let the wind blew it. It’s okay to cry, be depressed but at least talk to a friend. It is okay to be a cynic but don’t make it a living. It is okay to cry, it is okay to laugh, it is okay to let go. It is okay to open up, hit the ground but get up. It is okay to be disappointed, but don’t give up. It is okay to rely on someone, it won’t make you less of a independent person that you already are. It is okay to be turned down, you can try the second up to gazillionth time. It is okay to fail, the world won’t end because of it. There’s a time and place for everything.
My hubby and I would talk about it most of the time, how we’re not in a rush to start a family but it would be a bonus if we get one early on our marriage. How every period feels like a miscarriage but we console ourselves with the fact that the big guy up there still would want us to go to Europe first and have fun. We talked about how I really miss my best friends. He said absence makes the heart grow fonder and because I love them I let them use their wings to fly. We talked about me being a control freak. And it make sense, it took Matt Damon to make me remove my bun and helmet in the form of denial.
Today as I write this on the very flight that would bring me back to reality I made a decision, that upon ground arrival I will be the coolest version of me. I will let loose, I will let go, I will love more and I will live my life because a great man gave up his for me – for all of us. He took my cross from me so there is no reason to feel a heavy load.
Today, I will not feel guilty or be thrifty with the way I live. Today I will be happy no matter what. I will be more accepting, more understanding, more forgiving.
This is the day I am reborn.
Make this holy week holiday a time for reflection. Rest, lift it up to God and free your mind.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Robin thoughts on a Thursday
I am supposed to be working, I got tons of backlog and I need to be back on track. You see I got married (hahaha ibroadcast ba) and I was away on honeymoon that I haven’t had the chance to greet everyone on the blogosphere a Happy New Year. There I greeted everyone in time for the Chinese New Year.
Going back as to why I disrupted my Oh So Busy life is because I am too bothered with what I was able to glimpse on. Yes glimpse on because I wasn’t able to read the full story. I just took a quick read on the article regarding HIMYM. I am way too behind the current series. I don’t want to jump into conclusion but I am so concerned as to who is the Mom. It took me a long time to accept what I have read some time ago from Carter Bays that it is definitely not Robin. I am rooting for Robin. I want it to be Robin and for my sanity it got to be Robin.

But life must go on, the very reason why I’m writing this. I just have to let it out. I miss the gang. Will download more of the episodes soon and will have a marathon this weekend.
PS: I miss you my blog.
Sunday, October 02, 2011
I Miss You
I miss blabbing and musing about all things under the sun.
You see I am getting hitched in less than 80 days so my time is pretty devoted to preparations. We started early and I thought by this time I'll be chillaxing, watching my favorite tv shows but boy I am so wrong. Although everything is under control and I have never been a bridezilla yet, just thinking about things that still needs to be done stresses me. Maybe I really need to start practicing the mantra " let go and let God".
My birthday month was pretty awesome, I just want to share it with you because you know I always have birthday jitters every year - the price for growing old. But it was different this year, because of my busy schedule I didn't have the time to mope and think about how old and senseless the new year of my life would be. Well that's typical drama queen me but this year was really fun. People Tells me all the time that this is the last birthday I'll celebrate being single.
My sister and my nephew Johann travelled all the way from Bicol to spend a few days here. My best friend travelled a few thousand miles (yep from Singapore) to spend my birthday week with me. My closest friends and dear loved ones were all here. My Panget was here too and gave me the thing that I really wanted (he bought me the SLR cam I wanted which surprised me because he said we'll buy it next year).
I am so blessed, last night I was able to contemplate upon realizing it's the last quarter of the year already. 2012 is already waving at me. 2011 has been so far nice to me. He stayed true to his part of the bargain. Before this year started I asked that he be friendlier and nicer to me unlike the other years and he did, 2011 was really my year. I know it was not perfect, I had a lot of silent angst about my career and work life but God is good I'll be blessed because I know I have worked hard everyday for the company. Money is tight but the drought too shall pass. I am thankful that my parents are fine, their health are not perfect but okay. I am blessed, I believe and I have it in my heart because God is with me.
So there I updated you, I really miss talking to you but be assured that you are never forgotten. I am hoping to write more next year. I intend to travel more and try new exciting things next year so you an I will have a lot of stories to discuss. Please don't be sad okay, I am just here. Bear with me for the time being and let me enjoy my being a princess soon.
I gotta go now my blog, will write more soon. I really miss you and don't go anywhere okay. I'll write more soon.
Love,
Anne
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Far from Normal
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Kodak Moment
It’s confirmed, our very own wedding photographer was also the photographer of O & K in their engagement session and on their actual wedding yesterday in Batangas J.
Yes I’m back after days of snoozing from the blogosphere. Here’s my entry for the year, MY HAPPY NEW YEAR, a chismax about our photographer. Well it made me really giddy cos I’m in the middle of doing my own preparation as well. I really love NU, his shots are really bright, sunny, happy, cheerful (I know the adjectives are almost the same). Whenever I look at his photos - I smile, that’s how happy he can make me through his art. I wish I could look oh so pretty also when it’s my turn to be on his spotlight for my own Kodak moment. This is how happy W made me when we made the decision of booking NU.
After this week my wediste and this blog will be back in the game. I’ll be posting new entries after we booked the other important stuff this weekend. I cannot wait to have our excel file updated as well. W has been going on and on about the budget (hehehe I’ve been giving him balloon versions of the budget, been buffering it A LOT so that he raise it haha!).
I really love Thursdays. It’s almost the weekend! Yey!
Thursday, September 16, 2010
wish wish


Thursday, July 15, 2010
still can't get over...

Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Sun Shiny Day
I’m not used to being told I that brightened up someone else’s day, it feels great pala hehehe. I’m more used to bringing miseries and not sunshine to other people’s lives (I know and I confess). Yesterday was the day I realized I’m a speck of brightness (whatever that is).
I should do this often kaya lang baka kunin naman ako ni Lord, well I should limit it to a max of just 3 times a week. Yoko talagang maging mabait eh.
Happy Tuesday everyone. Enjoy the nice weather, enjoy the Olympics (go M. Phelps!!!) and enjoy life!
Monday, March 24, 2008
Across the Universe
I was informed that this was shown exclusively in Greenbelt/ Glorietta earlier this month but if you can get a copy (forgive me for saying this… even a pirated one for I’ve seen this in a pirated version that belongs to my bestfriend) GO GET ONE & WATCH IT.If you love the Beatles, or the movie version of RENT and Moulin Rouge add this film to your favorites list.
And if you can’t get enough of the movie, a 31 track deluxe Soundtrack CD edition is available which featured all the songs by the cast from the movie (again I’m sorry for saying this… I downloaded my copy from Limewire… what can I do? It’s not available here in Pinas).
This is definitely the best movie (for me) of 1st quarter 2008 (even though this was originally released last year).
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
27 Dresses
Succeeded in doing its primary objective: to entertain the viewersThose who loves Katherine Heigl would need not worry about what will be the outcome of this movie for her, and to those James Marsden fanatics (like me who’s a new convert – add Enchanted to the bill) will love him even more.
I personally love the end credits - it's very creative & funny.
I am chick flick sucker that is why this movie made me want to wish for my own cynical, impossible, unbeliever of marriage creep because later on (& because he met me) he’ll be transformed into this perfect groom meant only for me.
I already have 4 dresses in my closet, 2 more will be added this year… 21 more to go?
I hope not ;)
PS: I am not that happy, I am still depressed over the fact Heath is now a was.
Goodbye my Boys
He’s a promising Aussie bloke, loved by a lot in his brilliant Patrick performance opposite Julia in the adaptation of Shakespeare’s Taming the Shrew. He was blessed with a baby girl in 2006. What can go wrong, he’s just 28? Is it suicide?
They’re young and with bright futures yet they’re troubled and very tired of life.
May you both rest in peace Brad & Heath.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Life in Slowmo
But not today, strange things happened. Its drizzling when I went down the road with my jeans folded up, I held on tightly to my umbrella and then the song played. This particularly day I feel all so bubbly and cheerful because I have a new rainy day song. For some unknown bizarre reason I love walking under the rain. I guess just for today.
I don’t like Ben Lee that much but I love him today for his song. If today is the last day of my existence, I don’t feel sad. It doesn’t matter if I don’t have someone who’ll love me like the world is ending but I know I have the love for people and the feeling is as strong as the end of the world.
Happy rainy Wednesday guys. Go grab your hot coco, stare at the window and think of happy thoughts.
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Life in OR... An Expectator's Point of View
I was in the mood for sappy and chaotic hospital life last night so I set the DVD to a season 3 marathon of Grey’s Anatomy. I came across this great song from Travis used on episode 13 (Six Days part 1) here’s the video courtesy of youtube:If I told you a secret
You won't tell a soul
Will you hold it and keep it alive
Cause it's burning a hole
And I can't get to sleep
And I can't live alone in this lie
So look up
Take it away
Don't look da-da-da- down the mountain
If the world isn't turning
Your heart won't return
Anyone, anything, anyhow
So take me don't leave me
Take me don't leave me
Baby, love will come through it's just waiting for you
Well I stand at the crossroads
Of highroads and lowroads
And I got a feeling its right
If it's real what I'm feeling
There's no make believing
The sound of the wings of the flight of a dove
Take it away
Don't look da-da-da down the mountain
If the world isn't turning
Your heart won't return anyone anything anyhow...
So take me don't leave me
Take me don't leave me
Baby, love will come through it's just waiting for you
So look up
Take it away
Don't look da-da-da- down
If the world isn't turning
Your heart won't return anyone anything anyhow...
So take me don't leave me
Take me don't leave me
Baby, love will come through it's just waiting for you
Love will come through
Love will come through
Love will come through
So while I am in my Grey’s Anatomy good mood I am posting here some of the marvelous lines from season 3 that made me ponder and think about my own life a little (alright it’s a lie, I rationalized on every line big time).
(Meredith) At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that it’s happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away.
(Meredith) Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.
(Meredith) Change, we don’t like it, we fear it, but we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But here’s the truth: the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh, sometimes change is good. Oh, sometimes, change is ... everything.
(Preston) Cristina, I could promise to hold you, and to cherish you. I could promise to be there, in sickness and in health. I could say till death do us part. But I won't. Those vows are for optimistic couples, the ones full of hope. I do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope. I am not optimistic. I am not hopeful. I am sure. I am steady. I'm a heart man. Take 'em apart, put 'em back together, hold them in my hands. I am a heart man. So this, I am sure. You are my partner. My lover. My very best friend. My heart. My heart beats for you. And on this day, the day of our wedding, I promise you this. I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands, I promise you... me.
(Izzie) I am an optimist. I am a fool. I am not sure. Because I'm your best friend, because I love you, if what you want is to be with Callie then I will do everything in my power to support you and help you make your marriage work. But because I'm your best friend, because I love you, I also have to say... that I'm in love with you. I'm in love with you. I can't promise a future, I can't promise perfection, because we're us, I'm me and you're you. No one knows what will happen. But in my heart, I am sure. I'm in love with you George. And I hope you're in love with me too.
CRISTINA: "What am I supposed to say? 'I swear to love and cherish you every moment of everyday of my life?' I mean, that's not real. I mean, that's not how it works, right?"
(Meredith) What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should've healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again.
(Meredith) We all think we’re going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren’t met. But sometimes expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still, the expected is just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives
(George) Everytime I look at you... I feel better. It shocks me. It knocks my wind out, but it's true. I don't have to have sex with you, I'd be happy just look at you from across the room. Even that, anything, any piece of you. And, hopefully, all of you... that'd be the best thing. Because I love you…
Monday, July 02, 2007
Dreaming of...
Friday, June 08, 2007
Friday, June 01, 2007
The Best Piece of Advice
Ladies and Gentlemen the class of '97.
Wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it.
The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience...
I will dispense this advice now
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh, nevermind, you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded.
But trust me, in 20 years you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now, how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.
You are NOT as fat as you imagine.
Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum.
The real toubles in life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind the blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday
Do one thing everyday that scares you.
Sing.
Don't be reckless with other peoples hearts.
Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don't waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind.
The race is long, and in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive.
Forget the insults.
If you suceed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters.
Throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life.
The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most ineresting 40 year olds I know still don't.
Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees, you'll miss them when they're gone.
Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't.
Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't.
Maybe you'll divorce at 40.
Maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary....
Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either - your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's
Enjoy your body, use it every way you can... don't be afraid of it, or what other people think of it... it's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.
Dance... even if you have nowhere else to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.
Do NOT read beauty magazines they will only make you feel UGLY.
CHORUS
Brother and sister together we'll make it through.
Someday your spirit will take you and guide you there.
I know you've been hurting, but I've been waiting to be there for you.
And I'll be there just helping you out whenever I can.
Get to know your parents, you never know when they might be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings; they're your best link to your past, and the people most likely to stick with you in the future
Understand that friends come and go, except for the precious few you should hold on.
Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard.
Live in Northern California once, but, leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths.
Prices will rise, Politicians will philander, you too will get old.
And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble, and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you.
Maybe you'll have a trust fund, maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it.
Advice is a form of nostalgia; dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts, and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen.
CHORUS
Everybody's free. Everybody's free.
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
I wish...
I could talk to my bestfriend for hours not thinking about both our phone bills...
I could wake up smiling without the headaches...
I could lie down with a book sunbathing under the sun in a beautiful beach...
I could cuddle with my pamangkins and just feel like a kid again...
I could spend the summer vacationing for weeks up to 2 months just like when I was still a student...
I could go out of town without the baggage of the city (read: stress from the office, from people I'm not really fond of, from the whole urban depression)...
I wish I could sit by the window watching the rain drops while sipping hot coco (mindsetting itoh! ang init kase)...
I wish I could, just... but I can't.
Monday, February 12, 2007
Pre-Valentine Thoughts
I had the chance to bond with my good friend Zie last Friday & Saturday. She’s now in Bora enjoying the sun & sand – I should have been with her if only she booked me on that trip hehehe. But it’s okay because I am so looking forward to the goodies that she’ll buy for me.
I finished PH, hooray! Nice story – if only love will be like that for all of us. Well there are some like me who I think are not that fortunate enough to have a great romance but I am not complaining. I am having a little difficulty but I am sure that the best is yet to come.I am so blessed that my favorite boy(space)friend is still my good friend and that he’ll always be around. I am lucky to have my other boy(space)friend Ses who’s been acting as my conscience nowadays. Friends who knows how stupid I am but still they’re there, supportive and loving me just the same. And the girls, my girls Jen & Rovs – listeners of my non-stop rants and few raves. The bestest best friend in the world – who never fail to make the situation so wonderfully amusing. And Sophie, who seconded every motion – the way you did it shakes the cobwebs on my hard head.
Thanks to Monique for the pleadings – you saved my ass from my professor hehehe. Salamat talaga to the nth power, galing ng gawa mong ejection complaint.
Special mention to my good good friend Atty. Joel (so many Joels oo). Who have risen from the silence. Good thing you’re bored my dear at least napapadpad ka sa South to cheer me & yourself up. ATC is a good getaway from the Loovapalooza ain’t it? Thank you very much for the purple book rest. The story behind it melts my heart. Thanks for the effort (lahat ng effort) – I have really missed you and I am looking forward to having more good chats & moments with you.
A good friend really knows you in a lot of ways, from colors you like to the way you like things arranged. At dahil malapit na ang araw ng mga puso, binabati ko na kayong lahat – to those who’ll spend it with their honeys make the day really special and those who’ll be spending it with great friends like me – bless you all!


