Vday Thoughts

Am I suppose to love (or even like for that matter) vday this year cos I am already in a relationship? I have been – for the longest time – an anti-vday advocate. Not just because I was single all those times but because I hate the commercialism that surrounded this day that was supposed to be a grand gesture of honoring St. Valentines.

I am still anti-vday not because I am obligated to give W something, I would still stick to my idealism (hehehe an excuse), that I won’t be part of those who succumbs to Hallmark or gift stores for inventing this holiday. So if in case baby you’re reading this, you’re not getting anything okay?

But wholeheartedly, I am going to greet everyone an advance Happy Vday. Enjoy this day… don’t let this holiday slip without telling your loved ones the way you feel about them. It’s your choice if you want something wrapped to go along with your I Love Yous. Take care boys & girls!

Oh Crappy Day

I woke up at the wrong side of the bed and more like from the wrong side of the world. For some unknown reasons I woke up feeling really sad and it’s not the hormones I’m sure. After so many attempts to pretend that everything is alright I gave up. I fought the strong urge to succumb myself in an oral battle with anyone who’ll take me as an opponent. It feels really weird and I hate feeling crabby, I tried the coffee fix trick and it was unsuccessful.

I then watched Cougar Town episodes that I missed, the idea was to laugh or to feel even a slight smile formed on my lips – still unsuccessful. Grayson made me angry more. The “Someday Girl” idea made me hate him more. Words of encouragement from my guy didn’t help either. Stalking John Mayer (which worked all the time when I’m bored or sad) did nothing as well to sugar coat my sour mood. What’s wrong with me?

All I want to do right this minute is pack my bags, ride a plane going to SG and be with my bestfriends. Forget the responsibilities, forget deadlines, forget everything but just sashay away from here towards them.

I feel bad for my vendor who has to deal with all my bitching earlier today. It’s not her fault and I’m sorry because I really don’t have the time and sympathy for her. Arghh!!! What’s wrong with me today?

Thank God it's almost the weekend... I want a massage, an embrace & a kiss... I want Chuck and I want them all NOW!

Iba talaga...

pag may friends kang nagmamahal sayo... everyone is backing you up... eveyone wants to knock out some sense to the thick (face) skull of a certain psychotic grinch.

From Jen's site, nais nyang iparating kay Inday...

Mahirap kalabanin ang alyansa ng mga MD - Magagandang Dalaga. Ladies, mga mahal kong friends... cool lang lahat okay? Di nya tayo kaya, baka mapuno ang pamamahay ng mga Vin____ pag singugod natin sa bahay nila to air out our grievances. And we won't allow ourselves to be the aggrieved party.

PS: Tinagalog ko na baka kase may mag nosebleed sa pag intindi.

Dear R...

My guy (read this Inday...MY GUY) told me to have more patience in dealing with you. I even asked for discernment, I prayed... I gave you a little break inside my mind, you wrote it at an ungodly hour... Good Friday Jesus is dead that’s why evil forces were scattered around. I have no intentions of changing my blog site address. I can but I don’t want to. You can read all the things here, you can say whatever you want but I don’t think that I’ll give you the satisfaction you want. Sorry dear, I’m not as kind and as patient with you the way my friend Z is. An eye for an eye baby. I can track you down, I already know your IP address, the numbers you’ve been using in sending crazy messages to Z, phew they’re traceable so be careful. Prepaid numbers can always be traced, my SMART friends around the GLOBE knows. You may not be doing this alone and whoever is scheming with you will definitely be an accessory to the crime, I don’t need to tell you the technicalities for you may not understand them because it’ll all be in English and I don’t need to tell your sorry ass my reasons for leaving law school. The mere fact that I excelled when I was there and mind you, I went to San Beda – bawal di marunong mag-English dun day. So here’s a love letter for you.

Dear R,

I’m sure it’s you and I’m sorry how things turned out for you. I am sorry that you have the highest level of insecurity and that you always find ways on how to be unhappy. I am really sorry for you that I pity you. You wouldn’t want sympathy from me I assure you so gather yourself and act as normal as you can.

Have you noticed how many times you have mentioned the word “panget”? It’s already starting to emanate my dear... I was just being polite it actually was innate. Have you looked at the mirror lately? Tsk tsk so sad.

If you don’t stop pestering Z or me or our other friends, your precious E will have no idea about the crazy things you’ve been up to lately – at least not from me because I don’t think Mr & Mrs V_n__an (of Soldier’s Hills Munti) will take this issue lightly. And they will find out I assure you ;-) if you don’t stop. I can call one of these days or for an added element of surprise a visit to their home will be perfect.

So live your life, be happy, be normal but if you can’t, you can always call 5319001 because NCMH is always ready to lend a helping hand to those who are in need.

This is the last time will write something about you here... you can write anything you like but don’t think that my visit to the V family is a bluff.

Sincerely (you bet I’m still sincere),

Anne

PS: Stop using our other friend's names, stop stalking them in cyberspace... STOP HARASSING US!!! I am telling you nicely now to BACK-OFF, SCRAM and EVAPORATE.

PSS: The word child is singular it’s plural form is children. You don’t have to add s to children marami nayun plural (CHILDRENS??? Di pa ginawang CHILDS hahaha). That’s elementary English my dear and now that you know, it’s never too late to learn it even if you’re already 25 years old or up. Goodluck, study hard, English is our second language, a typo error in some cases can be acceptable I’ll give you that but grammar is very important.

Chase is doing the Chase

chase: what do you mean?i dont get it. i wish we cross our sights so that we can talk. don't worry im sure i'll drive far ahead than you coz driving in EDSA (metro manila) daily makes me a real driver!!!!

Are you some kind of a TAXI or TRUCK ah maybe BUS driver? Cos you’re so good hehehe driving in EDSA everyday that’s tough. And it’s really not safe to cross our sights, we might have an accident especially when we’re both driving... malabo na nga mata ko magiging duling pa ako tsk tsk tsk.

chase: you may also contact me if you need a driving instructor coz driving since college helped me a lot! enjoy driving sleepwalker.....

I don't think I'll need a driving instructor because I've been taught by a certified driving instructor & I aced my driving lessons so if in case you see me again on the streets be careful, kase ako I abide by the traffic rules baka ikaw kakatingin mo sa akin may mangyari sayo... ingat ka R.

Grrr!!!

I dunno if the template I have expired or what... basta nawala na lang sya, hirap kaya mag ayos ng template noh!

Line Them Up

Things to be sad about…

I will enumerate them even though I hate to cause too much negative energy. As much as possible one would want to focus only on the positive side of life. And it’s a Monday (Note: I wrote this yesterday) – no one would want rants all week long. But unfortunately what I can only write about today is nothing but about loneliness (yes, after a weekend at Boracay I chose to go sentimental).

Leaving me again, I know you’ll always be my bestfriend but I am not a fan of all the miles between us. I love it when I can talk to you in person, hug you when I’m sad and do the same thing for you when you’re down. I like it a lot when I can guess everything you’re thinking about, complete your sentences & thoughts and even make you laugh cause you do the same things for me too, I am really blessed to have a bestfriend in you.

Your baby, as I said things happen for a reason dear. I know how devastated you are, losing the first life that will come from you. I know how you’ve been patiently waiting, wanting and praying for that baby that is why I understand that it’s killing you with sadness. Feeling and seeing how slowly the little angel is leaving you, it really sucks. I’m here I told you, I want you to remember it. I cannot help you with the pain but I promise you that I’m with you in praying for the best. He loves you very much & He has greater plans for you.

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I believe you still have a chance, a chance to be the person you ought to be. I’m sorry I offended you, I didn’t mean to and I wasn’t really aware I have caused you pain. I don’t want to like you but you’re a good person that is why liking is you is like second skin. I just want you to realize where you stand. Don’t take what’s not yours and don’t you ever be possessive of something that is already mine.

Of all people, you were the one I thought would understand because I thought you trust me. It doesn’t mean that if girls made a mistake by messing up their lives means that I will fuck mine too. I was disappointed that you see me that way. I am not gonna end up like them believe me not because I want to prove you wrong but because I know better than that. I am not gonna give people the satisfaction they were hoping for. My downfall wouldn’t be that way.

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Competing with you is pointless. I should not bother.

The waters & wind of Bora know all about you. How stupid you are, how lucky you are. How special you are and how pathetic you make me feel. How you make me happy and hurt me all at the same time. I can’t blame you, you don’t know anything. You don’t even bother knowing something. ..(deleted).

PS: I edited this entry grabe nahuhulaan ni Jen eh :D

Who The?

What would make me sleep a real sleep, I wonder - all the time. The what became "how" and now I've resorted to "WHO". The million dollar question now is who.

I find myself staring at the ceiling most of the time. I need to sleep around 12 so that I could have atleast 3 hours of rest (not even a goodnight sleep) when I wake up at 3 am to read. Crazy as it is... I really need to get up, read and start the day early as the sun rises. My pimples are the living proof of that and although I have more often failed to wake up on the first sound of the alarm, I try my best to discipline myself with waking up at 3.

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Updates on the sleepwalker e-buzz... oh well, I have a new past time - torturing the soul of an ex-friend. Ex-friend why? He used to be my friend's significant other, we became friends since I am nice (harhar) they broke up, he became an asshole overnight. Chaos began when I unlocked the mystery by being brave enough to let what I think known by a lot of people (so you see I started it... I let the objects of his Pandora's box escape). Truth emerged and it was nasty. Do I regret being involved? Yes & No. Yes because now the war (I'm a peace loving person, *gulp*) is on and No because the SOAB was being possed by evil spirits named Inday and Lucrecia that is why he deserves to be exorcised. And anything for Babs, will do anything & everything for her.

It is really absurd and it really sucks when some people's comprehension skills are really way way below acceptable level. Word of advise, the key is to focus. If you're being attacked verbally, fight like a man (if you're a man) - don't be a coward or go running to hide on somebody else's skirt and then use it as a shield. Don't lie, don't curse (or atleast when you do make sure it's a legitimate word that could earn you an accusation for profanity) and most of all if you can't express it in English, don't ever dare use English words - the message you were trying to convey will all be meaningless - it'll only be you who'll get what you mean - message sending failed. It'll be very pathetic believe me. So try using Tagalog instead - this way your message will be crystal clear. Whoa... context clue? Not even applicable to the words you used.

Do not fight a character assasination with a physical appearance issue. It is not a match - purely a waste of time. Not worth debating on because my near blind eyes (but thanks to contact lenses for making it back to 20/20 vision) don't lie. And if you're smart even a bit, looks doesn't matter anymore (atleast to me and to a lot of people I'm pretty sure). What's sad is that you're not smart, not even nice, you have the worst choice of words, you're genuinely pathetic and an eyesore. How lonely could that be?

So now that the battle is on, like we said - bring it on. Just make sure you can end things that you started. If not, we'll finish them off for you, it will not be a pretty sight. It'll make you wish that our roads shouldn't have never crossed.