Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Lost, Found, Lost

I had a viewing bonanza (on my iPod) last night in this order, season 2 episode 3 of 90210 (one of my guilty pleasures, don't mock me okay), The Ugly Truth then lastly The Reader (you can tell that I went to bed around 1 am). I don't know if it's because of the unhappiness theme of both movies (hephep walang kokontra - The Ugly Truth I know had a happy ending and it's the reason why I'm saying it's a sad one, a fake happiness, more about this later) that I grabbed my stylus and started writing this paragraph on my phone organizer:

"It's crazy being in love, you do all sorts of stupid things like NOT doing any(some)thing even if the act means saving the life of the person you care about. It makes you cry, laugh, brings a lot of absurdities and happiness in life all at the same time, how stupid is that right? Like the song "Found", is there any good in being lost that one would dare not to be found? Is there such a thing as a good loss (hehehe good riddance is not love)? Just be in the abyss? The writer would yell "Hell yes!" because being lost some(any)where with the person you love is worth it. That at the end of the day everyone is just a cuddle kind of guy/gal. We all want to be with someone to feel loved. It is not the fear of being alone that we would want to be in a relationship (even how messy and hateful it is). It is more about being afraid to overflow, to feel overwhelmed since there is no such thing as just being plainly whelmed because you have so much to give, so much to offer, too much to take with no one to catch everything you've thrown at the end of the line. Love is crazy, it's stupid, it's the most unpredictable Thing (if it's non-living), Feeling (if it's emotion), Guy (if it's a person) or Girl (if it's me hehehe) in the world. The most wanted yet most dreaded."

Why am I blabbing about this last night? Because I'm a cliche. I am feeling just whelmed no pre or suffixes (if you know what I mean).

More Ugly Truths about the Ugly Truth soon (I don't feel like writing anymore hehehe). Enjoy the week girls and boys, I hope everyone's alright after the shower baths & tubs brought by Ondoy & Pepeng. Be thankful we're all still breathing, I know I am.