I wish...

I could write crazy stuff again...
I could talk to my bestfriend for hours not thinking about both our phone bills...
I could wake up smiling without the headaches...
I could lie down with a book sunbathing under the sun in a beautiful beach...
I could cuddle with my pamangkins and just feel like a kid again...
I could spend the summer vacationing for weeks up to 2 months just like when I was still a student...
I could go out of town without the baggage of the city (read: stress from the office, from people I'm not really fond of, from the whole urban depression)...
I wish I could sit by the window watching the rain drops while sipping hot coco (mindsetting itoh! ang init kase)...

I wish I could, just... but I can't.