Unsaid

I woke up today feeling sad and running late for work.

If I am to find the perfect song for this longest running syndicated situation, this Fray song would be it. UNSAID. I have the words inside but chose to leave them where they are. I could pour it out but I’d rather not. I can talk to him and tell him everything but I chose to be buried in the eerie silence of my heart. I am writing this thinking about him and listening to what could have been the soundtrack of our lives. I am the sole person responsible for my miseries and I’d rather be miserable than have all the what ifs in life - cos according to one great man whose name I cannot remember, WHAT IF is the saddest two words in the world when combined together.

As I say all the time in my very feeling wise manner – there are things that should be left unsaid, things that should be left unanswered. Ask me why? I’d rather not talk about it cos there are things that could get complicated more than they are now. He deserves to be happy. I wish him well. He should have the girl of his dreams soon or even not the dream girl but the girl that would love him the way he should be. That is the prayer from my heart, the prayer that could liberate me as well. I am not tired I just want change. I am not moving on cos I know I don’t have to it’ll just be a waste of time cos he’ll always be the guy I wished “my guy”.

For people who know me and those who cares for me, they know that I have never denied that my feelings are intense that I truly care and will forever be caring for & worrying about him. But he’ll never know because this is something I opted to be left unsaid. And with this, I am wrapping up the entry with a promise that I’ll be okay should you find the person you feel will make you happy. I care for you that much.

Not that you're the one

Not to say I'm right

Not to say today

And not to say a thing tonight

But suffice it to say

We're leaving things unsaid

We sing ourselves to sleep

Watching the day lie down instead

And we are leaving some things unsaid

And we are breathing deeper instead

We're both pretty sure

Neither one can tell

We seem difficult

What we got is hard as hell

A hundred thousand words could not quite explain

So I walk you to your car

And we can talk it out in the rain

And we are leaving some things unsaid

And we are breathing deeper instead

And we are leaving some things unsaid

I can sing myself to sleep

No more

Not that you're the one

Not to say I'm right

Not to say today

And not to say a thing tonight