The Ben Song

Look After You by The Fray

If I don’t say this now

I will surely break

As I’m leaving the one I want to take

Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait

My heart has started to separate

Oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh

Be my baby

Oh, oh, oh

I’ll look after you

There now, steady love,

so few come and don’t go

Will you won’t you,

be the one I always know

When I’m losing my control,

the city spins around

You’re the only one who knows,

you slow it down

Oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh

Be my baby

Oh, oh, oh

I’ll look after you

If ever there was a doubt

My love she leans into me

This most assuredly counts

She says most assuredly

Oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh

Be my baby

I’ll look after you

It’s always have and never hold

You’ve begun to feel like home

What’s mine is yours to leave or take

What’s mine is yours to make your own

Oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh

Be my baby

Oh, oh, oh

Unsaid

I woke up today feeling sad and running late for work.

If I am to find the perfect song for this longest running syndicated situation, this Fray song would be it. UNSAID. I have the words inside but chose to leave them where they are. I could pour it out but I’d rather not. I can talk to him and tell him everything but I chose to be buried in the eerie silence of my heart. I am writing this thinking about him and listening to what could have been the soundtrack of our lives. I am the sole person responsible for my miseries and I’d rather be miserable than have all the what ifs in life - cos according to one great man whose name I cannot remember, WHAT IF is the saddest two words in the world when combined together.

As I say all the time in my very feeling wise manner – there are things that should be left unsaid, things that should be left unanswered. Ask me why? I’d rather not talk about it cos there are things that could get complicated more than they are now. He deserves to be happy. I wish him well. He should have the girl of his dreams soon or even not the dream girl but the girl that would love him the way he should be. That is the prayer from my heart, the prayer that could liberate me as well. I am not tired I just want change. I am not moving on cos I know I don’t have to it’ll just be a waste of time cos he’ll always be the guy I wished “my guy”.

For people who know me and those who cares for me, they know that I have never denied that my feelings are intense that I truly care and will forever be caring for & worrying about him. But he’ll never know because this is something I opted to be left unsaid. And with this, I am wrapping up the entry with a promise that I’ll be okay should you find the person you feel will make you happy. I care for you that much.

Not that you're the one

Not to say I'm right

Not to say today

And not to say a thing tonight

But suffice it to say

We're leaving things unsaid

We sing ourselves to sleep

Watching the day lie down instead

And we are leaving some things unsaid

And we are breathing deeper instead

We're both pretty sure

Neither one can tell

We seem difficult

What we got is hard as hell

A hundred thousand words could not quite explain

So I walk you to your car

And we can talk it out in the rain

And we are leaving some things unsaid

And we are breathing deeper instead

And we are leaving some things unsaid

I can sing myself to sleep

No more

Not that you're the one

Not to say I'm right

Not to say today

And not to say a thing tonight

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First Day High

I accompanied my nephew Jude on his first day of high school last Monday morning. I can't sense if he's excited or nervous because when I asked him about it as always he was in his usual cool composure. I was there, the very supportive Tita waiting for the bell so that he can climb upstairs to the first year’s designated classroom.

I can’t help but notice that high school before and now is more or less still the same. In the corner of my eye I saw one pretty girl approaching with her whole entourage. Another one approached and when she reached the first pretty girl they did the usual beso-beso, all 6 of them. These are the popular pretty girls. The geeks were in one corner eyeing them as if talking about them. But they made sure that their heads were bowed and their stare were just peripherally adjusted so as not to be caught. Then here comes the jock, he was wearing sunglasses so I really can’t figure out if he’s good looking or not. He removed his glasses then greeted a group of cool guys hanging out by the cafeteria – he is cute. As he passed by you can’t deny that he exudes a great confidence – his strides tell that this is gonna be his year. I also noticed the side ways glance he throw the prettiest girl from the popular group.

This was the same scenario I witnessed when I was in highschool. You might be wondering what group I belong to. Well to be honest not the popular kid’s group not even the geeks’ or the jocks’. I belong to a unique group (aside from the fact that I’m late during first days of school that is why I don’t have the luxury of bidding time on the hallways). I belong to UNP, the Unpredictables. It was the melting pot of individuals in our year level. We have a geek, a jock, some popular pretty girls, talented ones – can sing can dance, we have the presidents of various organizations, we have the excellent & most intelligent students, the school majorette belongs to our group, the class valedictorian & salutatorian, the boy scouts, the drummers, the twirlers, the losers hehehe. And we’re just 8 in that group.

I am thankful that I have that group, it made my high school really fun. I miss you Chie, Mark, Yong, Dette, Cel, Juliet – and our ampon Tonie. Miss you guys, all the memories swarm back to me when I was observing everything at Jude’s school. Love you guys and thank you for the friendship, see all soon.

My One Liners

1. Hand me the bucket, I think I'm gonna be sick.
2. What is Joel Madden doing in that movie?

3. Tobey could use a little dance lessons and a trip to the gym

(I hate it that much)

1. Mr. Tumnus cleaned out pretty fine

2. Shame on award giving bodies for not giving James McAvoy one of it.

3. Great performance by the actors, great movie.

1. The only Will Ferrel movie that I liked

2. My new favorite movie

3. Love the story

1. Jake is still the love of my life

2. One of the best written thriller movie

3. Worth watching

Heather

that's me :)

Enchanted and Engagement

Spent a carefree afternoon at Enchanted Kingdom last May 20 with my good friends JOLOGS from college. Here are some pictures with Saree, Gabs, Ziella & Chona:

We finished that afternoon with a celebratory dinner of Saree & Patrick's offcical engagement. We had a nice dinner courtesy of Manay Saree at the Old Spaghetti House in Festival.

CONGRATULATIONS SAR & PAT!!! God bless & love you both!!!

They got engaged on their anniversary last May 19 at Serendra