i might look all too cheerful in this pic but I am not sure if I need to smile or what.
Monday, June 06, 2005
Sunday, June 05, 2005
Soumates
"Soulmates, they're very rare but they do exist"
-Albert, What Dreams May Come
I have had my own share of bubus when it comes to being disguised by this crazy thing called soulmates. There was a time when I thought my soulmate was a geographer, I was wrong. Then someone from the past, from my childhood-- wrong again. Then recently I thought he was the blinking man I met. I still think he is but then I can never be too sure.
The answer to this is in the same movie when Chris said "It is not about understanding, it about not giving up". I agree, it is not about understanding for the fact that this unique design of God on how 2 people will live in harmony is simply unexplainable. But lucky are those who found their soulmates & are still with their soulmates.
I was on my way home last Saturday boarding a public transpo. It was already late that is why we were like 4 only inside the vehicle. Near the entrance was an old couple. The old guy was holding a knap sack while holding his wife's hand on the other. I observed that the old lady was in pain, she was wincing & the old man was stroking her hand. I can say that they were really praying that they reach their destination ASAP. I was staring at them until I have to go only to find out that the couple & I had the same stop. I saw both of them walking real slow because of their age & because the old lady was really clutching to the man for support. They were heading to the hospital near the subdivision where I live. It amazes me to find old couple showing signs that they still very much love each other. I have dreamt of the same thing for me & my would be partner in life. I want to grow old along side my soulmate. I want the "Notebook" kind of old age. I have seen my parents grow old together & theirs was a different kind of love. I have seen them work out on a compromise, I have seen them share troubles & pain. I am praying that I would have the same fate as theirs.
But not all of us are lucky enough to end up with the one. My advise, don't give up. Don't look for it either. If its for you it will show itself to you in time. Don't settle for a "just because" person. Settle to the one.
But I am still gonna get married next year hehehe ;-) whatever happens.
-Albert, What Dreams May Come
I have had my own share of bubus when it comes to being disguised by this crazy thing called soulmates. There was a time when I thought my soulmate was a geographer, I was wrong. Then someone from the past, from my childhood-- wrong again. Then recently I thought he was the blinking man I met. I still think he is but then I can never be too sure.
The answer to this is in the same movie when Chris said "It is not about understanding, it about not giving up". I agree, it is not about understanding for the fact that this unique design of God on how 2 people will live in harmony is simply unexplainable. But lucky are those who found their soulmates & are still with their soulmates.
I was on my way home last Saturday boarding a public transpo. It was already late that is why we were like 4 only inside the vehicle. Near the entrance was an old couple. The old guy was holding a knap sack while holding his wife's hand on the other. I observed that the old lady was in pain, she was wincing & the old man was stroking her hand. I can say that they were really praying that they reach their destination ASAP. I was staring at them until I have to go only to find out that the couple & I had the same stop. I saw both of them walking real slow because of their age & because the old lady was really clutching to the man for support. They were heading to the hospital near the subdivision where I live. It amazes me to find old couple showing signs that they still very much love each other. I have dreamt of the same thing for me & my would be partner in life. I want to grow old along side my soulmate. I want the "Notebook" kind of old age. I have seen my parents grow old together & theirs was a different kind of love. I have seen them work out on a compromise, I have seen them share troubles & pain. I am praying that I would have the same fate as theirs.
But not all of us are lucky enough to end up with the one. My advise, don't give up. Don't look for it either. If its for you it will show itself to you in time. Don't settle for a "just because" person. Settle to the one.
But I am still gonna get married next year hehehe ;-) whatever happens.
Lessons Learned on Love
“I don’t want to be number 3 or number 4 in someone else’s priority”
“If you’re not ready to sound stupid you’re not ready to be in love”
-Emily, A Lot Like Love
Song of the Moment: Colour Blind - Counting Crows
First of all hi to Mark, ang aking Fafa Bear.
Hooray! I was able to make a perfect caesar salad with a little help from salad in a bag, yep I know you’ll say salad lang all you have to do is put dressing toss mix & voila! But what I did was really different, hehehe it’s really good that it is like TGIF’s recipe.
As I busied myself watching DVDs morning till afternoon, my evening was great. I had dinner at Pasto Eastwood with some friends whom I have missed terribly over the last few months. The seafood pasta there is good & so as the thin crust pizza (I am no pizza fan that’s why believe me when I say a pizza from somewhere is good). It was raining hard inside & outside the Citywalk mall. It was awful! Imagine rain pouring inside a mall, I think their pipes were congested or something. Lightning & thunder was horrible too but you can’t stop the Eastwood crowd who were there to party, the rain can’t stop them from doing so. My friends & I watched “A Lot Like Love” & I very much recommend that you guys watch it. It’s about fate, true love, friendship & standing tests of time as one, a certified feel good movie. If you were really meant to be (READ THIS LUCHIE) with this person, you’d get it through… through time, through problems & through other people. I am a big “Dream for an Insomniac” supporter however I do not agree with a line said in that movie that “There is no chance at all, we are all trapped by a singular fate, no one ever finds the one”. I completely disagree, in one’s life, true love always come. For some people it happens once, for those who are lucky not just once. But this doesn’t guarantee a happy ending for everybody, sad but true. By the mere fact that we have all experienced this feeling even for a short while made us all fortunate for the greatest feeling in this world is love. I am not preaching nor patronizing love because I myself have experienced screw ups because of this. I also have a guy who got away but that doesn’t stop me from hoping that the real one is on his way. I don’t want him rushing towards me, he can bid his time but most importantly his path should lead to mine. This is fate. I remember my best friend Luchie telling me some years ago that I should give fate a little nudge. It took me 3 years to finally have the guts and follow that advise & I can say that it was effective, fool proof & a success. I may receive raised brows as a reaction here, people (especially those close to me) may say how come you’re single & unattached if you are saying that it was a success. Why? It was not a failed relationship, it was good, it just that it didn’t end the way a romantic movie would probably do. As the song goes "some good things never last" (way to go Barbara)... I would like to add that I am fortunate beacuse it happened. Some good thing never last others don't even start kaya maswerte pa rin ako hehehe.
Anyway, I can’t wait to share the lines from my favorite movie “Dream for an Insomniac”. This is where some of my principles in life & love came from:
“Fun is fleeting, it is pain that endures and give life it’s meaning” (kinda pessimistic but true, it is pain that we remember more that happy moments)
“I don’t want to be 60 years old & seemingly happily married to some man I know is my second choice & wondering whatever happened to the beautiful angel who came in & out of my life & who never gave me a chance”
“Do you love her? Does the thought of her, the smell of her, the touch of her make you quiver? When she’s away from you, do you think about her & wish she were in your arms making love to you? When you see her after not seeing her for a whole day does she make everything okay?”
“Just remember one thing, anything less that mad, passionate, extraordinary love is a waste of time. There are so many mediocre things in life to deal with & love shouldn’t be one of them”
The lines above were all delivered by Frankie, the insomniac in the movie (& the one I can relate to). The words she has said were in a way idealistic & standard forming but then it was a movie, it may & may not happen in real life.
Signs about true love may seem exaggerated but they’re all true. Quivers, butterflies in the stomach, goose bumps, trembling – you can say that these were all shit but I can attest to that.
Bye for now... I'm off for now. Capisci!
“If you’re not ready to sound stupid you’re not ready to be in love”
-Emily, A Lot Like Love
Song of the Moment: Colour Blind - Counting Crows
First of all hi to Mark, ang aking Fafa Bear.
Hooray! I was able to make a perfect caesar salad with a little help from salad in a bag, yep I know you’ll say salad lang all you have to do is put dressing toss mix & voila! But what I did was really different, hehehe it’s really good that it is like TGIF’s recipe.
As I busied myself watching DVDs morning till afternoon, my evening was great. I had dinner at Pasto Eastwood with some friends whom I have missed terribly over the last few months. The seafood pasta there is good & so as the thin crust pizza (I am no pizza fan that’s why believe me when I say a pizza from somewhere is good). It was raining hard inside & outside the Citywalk mall. It was awful! Imagine rain pouring inside a mall, I think their pipes were congested or something. Lightning & thunder was horrible too but you can’t stop the Eastwood crowd who were there to party, the rain can’t stop them from doing so. My friends & I watched “A Lot Like Love” & I very much recommend that you guys watch it. It’s about fate, true love, friendship & standing tests of time as one, a certified feel good movie. If you were really meant to be (READ THIS LUCHIE) with this person, you’d get it through… through time, through problems & through other people. I am a big “Dream for an Insomniac” supporter however I do not agree with a line said in that movie that “There is no chance at all, we are all trapped by a singular fate, no one ever finds the one”. I completely disagree, in one’s life, true love always come. For some people it happens once, for those who are lucky not just once. But this doesn’t guarantee a happy ending for everybody, sad but true. By the mere fact that we have all experienced this feeling even for a short while made us all fortunate for the greatest feeling in this world is love. I am not preaching nor patronizing love because I myself have experienced screw ups because of this. I also have a guy who got away but that doesn’t stop me from hoping that the real one is on his way. I don’t want him rushing towards me, he can bid his time but most importantly his path should lead to mine. This is fate. I remember my best friend Luchie telling me some years ago that I should give fate a little nudge. It took me 3 years to finally have the guts and follow that advise & I can say that it was effective, fool proof & a success. I may receive raised brows as a reaction here, people (especially those close to me) may say how come you’re single & unattached if you are saying that it was a success. Why? It was not a failed relationship, it was good, it just that it didn’t end the way a romantic movie would probably do. As the song goes "some good things never last" (way to go Barbara)... I would like to add that I am fortunate beacuse it happened. Some good thing never last others don't even start kaya maswerte pa rin ako hehehe.
Anyway, I can’t wait to share the lines from my favorite movie “Dream for an Insomniac”. This is where some of my principles in life & love came from:
“Fun is fleeting, it is pain that endures and give life it’s meaning” (kinda pessimistic but true, it is pain that we remember more that happy moments)
“I don’t want to be 60 years old & seemingly happily married to some man I know is my second choice & wondering whatever happened to the beautiful angel who came in & out of my life & who never gave me a chance”
“Do you love her? Does the thought of her, the smell of her, the touch of her make you quiver? When she’s away from you, do you think about her & wish she were in your arms making love to you? When you see her after not seeing her for a whole day does she make everything okay?”
“Just remember one thing, anything less that mad, passionate, extraordinary love is a waste of time. There are so many mediocre things in life to deal with & love shouldn’t be one of them”
The lines above were all delivered by Frankie, the insomniac in the movie (& the one I can relate to). The words she has said were in a way idealistic & standard forming but then it was a movie, it may & may not happen in real life.
Signs about true love may seem exaggerated but they’re all true. Quivers, butterflies in the stomach, goose bumps, trembling – you can say that these were all shit but I can attest to that.
Bye for now... I'm off for now. Capisci!
Saturday, June 04, 2005
Struck on a Windy Dawn
“If you miss me comeback anytime”
-Kyungjin Yeo, Windstruck
Song of the Moment: I Can’t Smile Without You (Oh Yeah!)
Kaboom, the dvd went flying then it crashed on the wall. It banged due to the uncontrollable emotion that I felt after watching the film. Tears were rolling down my face, I wiped them away & traces of streaks can be seen from my cheeks.
Okay emo shift, hehehe wake up Juanna!
OA hehehe but I must admit, I am guilty I cried while watching the Korean movie Windstruck. Although it was nothing compared to My Sassy Girl, it’ll pass when you’re too bored on a Friday night or is it morning already? Overall rating, a 5 - 10 being the highest.
I used to be a hardcore insomniac, I have experienced staring at the sky while lying on my bed (my bed in Pacita was opposite the windows, I would open them wide & tie the curtains so that I can watch the stars from the sky) then suddenly the sky turned into an orange glow. Before I knew it the sun was shinning already. I cried that moment, not because I was in awe with the transformation of dark to light (reminds me of hope) but because it was the reverse for me… from light to dark… from then on I admitted that I am a certified insomniac. As a self-confessed light sleeper, or let say a person with a terrible sleeping disorder, an hour of sleep is no difference to a full 8 hours that one needs. I mean I really don’t feel tired at all even though I was able to blink for a short while only. Funny how people would often sleep on me while chatting with me on the phone then they’ll wake up clutching the receiver the next morning. During those days I have watched all the TV shows being played including the reruns (I used to watch Just Shoot Me twice in a day – same episode). I said used to be, cos it disappeared when I entered law school. During those days, I wished I was never an insomniac cos then, I’ll have to use all the time I’m awake to read… my life was so miserable that I ended up being sick. But I love law school, If only I can continue studying without any complications, I would love to stick my nose on thick hardbound books & codals.
Anyway you would wonder what is the connection between Windstruck & Insomnia, well there’s none. I just want to blabber & blabber to keep me from staring on the wall while waiting for Sandman.
Segue, my bestfriend just came back from Cambodia. Yes Luchie is back & with a vengeance! Joke, hehehe… I’m just so happy that she’s here in the Philippines for 2 weeks. And we’re going to Sagada, Baguio & Banawe. It’ll be good for the both of us to get away for a while even just for 3 days. I’ll tell you guys more about Luch next time. She deserves a full article, not just being mentioned. Pareho kame ng tadhana nun eh. Oh well, guys were just being moronic sometimes. Biruin mo si Chie, good catch ngayon broken hearted? I could jab that D of an a-hole for a change. He’s so stupid! It seems like break ups these days ended cos of intrusions of other people. But she’s gonna be fine just like me, she’s a fighter… I have seen her rise in glory every time people would push her to the ground. Plus she’s really pretty & smart, a real good catch. Guys, bidding is open in a few hours (hehehehe ibenta ba daw?)…only smart guys are welcome because men like D are pretty stupid when it comes to choosing the better girl. Enough said, marami nang nasasaktan at natatamaan, no offense meant guys & peace out!
-Kyungjin Yeo, Windstruck
Song of the Moment: I Can’t Smile Without You (Oh Yeah!)
Kaboom, the dvd went flying then it crashed on the wall. It banged due to the uncontrollable emotion that I felt after watching the film. Tears were rolling down my face, I wiped them away & traces of streaks can be seen from my cheeks.
Okay emo shift, hehehe wake up Juanna!
OA hehehe but I must admit, I am guilty I cried while watching the Korean movie Windstruck. Although it was nothing compared to My Sassy Girl, it’ll pass when you’re too bored on a Friday night or is it morning already? Overall rating, a 5 - 10 being the highest.
I used to be a hardcore insomniac, I have experienced staring at the sky while lying on my bed (my bed in Pacita was opposite the windows, I would open them wide & tie the curtains so that I can watch the stars from the sky) then suddenly the sky turned into an orange glow. Before I knew it the sun was shinning already. I cried that moment, not because I was in awe with the transformation of dark to light (reminds me of hope) but because it was the reverse for me… from light to dark… from then on I admitted that I am a certified insomniac. As a self-confessed light sleeper, or let say a person with a terrible sleeping disorder, an hour of sleep is no difference to a full 8 hours that one needs. I mean I really don’t feel tired at all even though I was able to blink for a short while only. Funny how people would often sleep on me while chatting with me on the phone then they’ll wake up clutching the receiver the next morning. During those days I have watched all the TV shows being played including the reruns (I used to watch Just Shoot Me twice in a day – same episode). I said used to be, cos it disappeared when I entered law school. During those days, I wished I was never an insomniac cos then, I’ll have to use all the time I’m awake to read… my life was so miserable that I ended up being sick. But I love law school, If only I can continue studying without any complications, I would love to stick my nose on thick hardbound books & codals.
Anyway you would wonder what is the connection between Windstruck & Insomnia, well there’s none. I just want to blabber & blabber to keep me from staring on the wall while waiting for Sandman.
Segue, my bestfriend just came back from Cambodia. Yes Luchie is back & with a vengeance! Joke, hehehe… I’m just so happy that she’s here in the Philippines for 2 weeks. And we’re going to Sagada, Baguio & Banawe. It’ll be good for the both of us to get away for a while even just for 3 days. I’ll tell you guys more about Luch next time. She deserves a full article, not just being mentioned. Pareho kame ng tadhana nun eh. Oh well, guys were just being moronic sometimes. Biruin mo si Chie, good catch ngayon broken hearted? I could jab that D of an a-hole for a change. He’s so stupid! It seems like break ups these days ended cos of intrusions of other people. But she’s gonna be fine just like me, she’s a fighter… I have seen her rise in glory every time people would push her to the ground. Plus she’s really pretty & smart, a real good catch. Guys, bidding is open in a few hours (hehehehe ibenta ba daw?)…only smart guys are welcome because men like D are pretty stupid when it comes to choosing the better girl. Enough said, marami nang nasasaktan at natatamaan, no offense meant guys & peace out!
Friday, June 03, 2005
Day 2 Step 1.5 Releasing the Negative Energy
To Do: Polish good & Relinquish bad Vocabulary Items
Song of the Moment: Life’s A Bitch by Shooter
Disclosure: Mature language, apologies for such terms, everything is personal (hmmp!)
I know you’re reading!!!
WORD POWER
1. SBITCH – skinny slutty scheming bitch (labels labels)
eg. Girls who would go to the ports and other galleries mining gold with guys who would allow them to swallow them alive... move over Valentina.
2. ALL OVER – raping you hehehe
eg. What can I do? She’s all over me.
3. SUNSET – ditch romanticism try some pessimism
eg. End of the world! (Bwahahaha – mala bruha) who sucked down the feeling? Ako ba?
4. COPYCAT – a lot lot more to choose from, try blog.com or why not xanga.com?
eg. Talaga naman at kailangang sa blogspot din.
5. GP – (2 in 1 meaning) in the order of the original
eg. Music, Adventure & Experience… what’s next? Song Lyrics & Feelings?
Anger is something that should be released, I just wish I have the craft of letting it go. Forgive & Forget is out of the question, my mantra is forgive & learn. No body owes me anything that is why I don't owe anyone either. This is my blog, I can write anything I want. I feel sorry to those who will get hurt with what I wrote, I am just expressing myself and telling the truth. As one person I know told me, the truth hurts. And it does bigtime.
Thursday, June 02, 2005
Brainiacs, checking on the brain waves
My favorite hobby to pass the time… bombarding my friends with my whys & what ifs hehehehe. As my friend Jeng would put it, I am the Queen of “worse case scenarios”. Oh well I can’t help it, I am no Promil kid but then again I might have been part of the 0.1 cases of baby prodigies. Hehehe my talent? Magtanong at mangulit.
I would like to share one of my topic na talaga namang bestseller hehehe.
My question: Hindi naman ako pangit…bakit di ako minamaniac?
Okay, stop!
Don’t worry this is not an R18 material, wholesome po ito. I often hear my guy friends talk about girls who pass by & make snotty comments & if the girl is really hot they were verbally abused, yes by my good guy friends. Not abused na harapan ha, narape na sila thru the eyes. No kidding, this always happen… like a girl in a mini skirt, “Pare puti ng legs” or the girl with an unusually big boobies would get a malicious remark without her knowledge. These girls I have been told were also prone to guys who would “accidentally” bump into any part of their body. In other words, namamaniac sila.
Let me give you some snide comments I have received from my so-called friends when I asked them bakit ako hindi namamaniac (hehehehe).
“Ikaw? Eh ang taray ng mukha mo noh”
“At bakit naman gusto mong magpamaniac, aber?”
“Magsuot ka ng daring then ask me again”
“Show some cleavage if you like (Anne: Cleavage? Eh wala ako nun eh)…then forget it”
“Zzzzzzzzzz”
“Tama na kase, smart ka naman okay lang yun hehehe (sarcastic tone)”
“Be glad di ka minamaniac noh! It only means you’re a person with respectable reputation”
“Ano ka ba?”
“Leche ask me something essential & stop you’re non-sense”
“Diyos ko, gustuhin daw bang mahalay?”
and so on….
Other comments would be very much appreciated. Feel free to vandalize.
Although their remarks were nothing but battery to my wounded pride (as if) I am glad that I was able to be antagonized in this topic, it only means that I may be a goody goody kind of person but I am smart hehehe & decent (blink blink).
Thanks sa mga pang aalipusta mga friends :-)
Day 1: Emo Songs to Clear the Cloudy Mind
Day 1
Theme: Mag emote kunwa-kunwarian
Song of the Moment: NOVEMBER
so i'm waiting for this test to end
so these lighter days can soon begin
i'll be alone but maybe more carefree
like a kite that floats so effortlessly
i was afraid to be alone
but now i'm scared that's how i like to be all
these faces, none the same
how can there be so many personalities
so many lifeless, empty hands
so many hearts in great demand
and now my sorrow seems so far away
until i'm taken by these bolts of pain
but i turn them off and tuck them away
till these rainy days that make them stay
and then i'll cry so hard to these sad songs
and the words still ring, once here, now gone
and they echo through my head every day
and i don't think they'll ever go away
just like thinking of your childhood home
but we can't go back, we're on our own,
oh but i'm about to give this one more shot
and find it in myself i'll find it in myself
... to be continued
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