“If you miss me comeback anytime”
-Kyungjin Yeo, Windstruck
Song of the Moment: I Can’t Smile Without You (Oh Yeah!)
Kaboom, the dvd went flying then it crashed on the wall. It banged due to the uncontrollable emotion that I felt after watching the film. Tears were rolling down my face, I wiped them away & traces of streaks can be seen from my cheeks.
Okay emo shift, hehehe wake up Juanna!
OA hehehe but I must admit, I am guilty I cried while watching the Korean movie Windstruck. Although it was nothing compared to My Sassy Girl, it’ll pass when you’re too bored on a Friday night or is it morning already? Overall rating, a 5 - 10 being the highest.
I used to be a hardcore insomniac, I have experienced staring at the sky while lying on my bed (my bed in Pacita was opposite the windows, I would open them wide & tie the curtains so that I can watch the stars from the sky) then suddenly the sky turned into an orange glow. Before I knew it the sun was shinning already. I cried that moment, not because I was in awe with the transformation of dark to light (reminds me of hope) but because it was the reverse for me… from light to dark… from then on I admitted that I am a certified insomniac. As a self-confessed light sleeper, or let say a person with a terrible sleeping disorder, an hour of sleep is no difference to a full 8 hours that one needs. I mean I really don’t feel tired at all even though I was able to blink for a short while only. Funny how people would often sleep on me while chatting with me on the phone then they’ll wake up clutching the receiver the next morning. During those days I have watched all the TV shows being played including the reruns (I used to watch Just Shoot Me twice in a day – same episode). I said used to be, cos it disappeared when I entered law school. During those days, I wished I was never an insomniac cos then, I’ll have to use all the time I’m awake to read… my life was so miserable that I ended up being sick. But I love law school, If only I can continue studying without any complications, I would love to stick my nose on thick hardbound books & codals.
Anyway you would wonder what is the connection between Windstruck & Insomnia, well there’s none. I just want to blabber & blabber to keep me from staring on the wall while waiting for Sandman.
Segue, my bestfriend just came back from Cambodia. Yes Luchie is back & with a vengeance! Joke, hehehe… I’m just so happy that she’s here in the Philippines for 2 weeks. And we’re going to Sagada, Baguio & Banawe. It’ll be good for the both of us to get away for a while even just for 3 days. I’ll tell you guys more about Luch next time. She deserves a full article, not just being mentioned. Pareho kame ng tadhana nun eh. Oh well, guys were just being moronic sometimes. Biruin mo si Chie, good catch ngayon broken hearted? I could jab that D of an a-hole for a change. He’s so stupid! It seems like break ups these days ended cos of intrusions of other people. But she’s gonna be fine just like me, she’s a fighter… I have seen her rise in glory every time people would push her to the ground. Plus she’s really pretty & smart, a real good catch. Guys, bidding is open in a few hours (hehehehe ibenta ba daw?)…only smart guys are welcome because men like D are pretty stupid when it comes to choosing the better girl. Enough said, marami nang nasasaktan at natatamaan, no offense meant guys & peace out!
Saturday, June 04, 2005
Friday, June 03, 2005
Day 2 Step 1.5 Releasing the Negative Energy
To Do: Polish good & Relinquish bad Vocabulary Items
Song of the Moment: Life’s A Bitch by Shooter
Disclosure: Mature language, apologies for such terms, everything is personal (hmmp!)
I know you’re reading!!!
WORD POWER
1. SBITCH – skinny slutty scheming bitch (labels labels)
eg. Girls who would go to the ports and other galleries mining gold with guys who would allow them to swallow them alive... move over Valentina.
2. ALL OVER – raping you hehehe
eg. What can I do? She’s all over me.
3. SUNSET – ditch romanticism try some pessimism
eg. End of the world! (Bwahahaha – mala bruha) who sucked down the feeling? Ako ba?
4. COPYCAT – a lot lot more to choose from, try blog.com or why not xanga.com?
eg. Talaga naman at kailangang sa blogspot din.
5. GP – (2 in 1 meaning) in the order of the original
eg. Music, Adventure & Experience… what’s next? Song Lyrics & Feelings?
Anger is something that should be released, I just wish I have the craft of letting it go. Forgive & Forget is out of the question, my mantra is forgive & learn. No body owes me anything that is why I don't owe anyone either. This is my blog, I can write anything I want. I feel sorry to those who will get hurt with what I wrote, I am just expressing myself and telling the truth. As one person I know told me, the truth hurts. And it does bigtime.
Thursday, June 02, 2005
Brainiacs, checking on the brain waves
My favorite hobby to pass the time… bombarding my friends with my whys & what ifs hehehehe. As my friend Jeng would put it, I am the Queen of “worse case scenarios”. Oh well I can’t help it, I am no Promil kid but then again I might have been part of the 0.1 cases of baby prodigies. Hehehe my talent? Magtanong at mangulit.
I would like to share one of my topic na talaga namang bestseller hehehe.
My question: Hindi naman ako pangit…bakit di ako minamaniac?
Okay, stop!
Don’t worry this is not an R18 material, wholesome po ito. I often hear my guy friends talk about girls who pass by & make snotty comments & if the girl is really hot they were verbally abused, yes by my good guy friends. Not abused na harapan ha, narape na sila thru the eyes. No kidding, this always happen… like a girl in a mini skirt, “Pare puti ng legs” or the girl with an unusually big boobies would get a malicious remark without her knowledge. These girls I have been told were also prone to guys who would “accidentally” bump into any part of their body. In other words, namamaniac sila.
Let me give you some snide comments I have received from my so-called friends when I asked them bakit ako hindi namamaniac (hehehehe).
“Ikaw? Eh ang taray ng mukha mo noh”
“At bakit naman gusto mong magpamaniac, aber?”
“Magsuot ka ng daring then ask me again”
“Show some cleavage if you like (Anne: Cleavage? Eh wala ako nun eh)…then forget it”
“Zzzzzzzzzz”
“Tama na kase, smart ka naman okay lang yun hehehe (sarcastic tone)”
“Be glad di ka minamaniac noh! It only means you’re a person with respectable reputation”
“Ano ka ba?”
“Leche ask me something essential & stop you’re non-sense”
“Diyos ko, gustuhin daw bang mahalay?”
and so on….
Other comments would be very much appreciated. Feel free to vandalize.
Although their remarks were nothing but battery to my wounded pride (as if) I am glad that I was able to be antagonized in this topic, it only means that I may be a goody goody kind of person but I am smart hehehe & decent (blink blink).
Thanks sa mga pang aalipusta mga friends :-)
Day 1: Emo Songs to Clear the Cloudy Mind
Day 1
Theme: Mag emote kunwa-kunwarian
Song of the Moment: NOVEMBER
so i'm waiting for this test to end
so these lighter days can soon begin
i'll be alone but maybe more carefree
like a kite that floats so effortlessly
i was afraid to be alone
but now i'm scared that's how i like to be all
these faces, none the same
how can there be so many personalities
so many lifeless, empty hands
so many hearts in great demand
and now my sorrow seems so far away
until i'm taken by these bolts of pain
but i turn them off and tuck them away
till these rainy days that make them stay
and then i'll cry so hard to these sad songs
and the words still ring, once here, now gone
and they echo through my head every day
and i don't think they'll ever go away
just like thinking of your childhood home
but we can't go back, we're on our own,
oh but i'm about to give this one more shot
and find it in myself i'll find it in myself
... to be continued
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Letters From Ben to Carrie & Carrie to Ben
Intoduction: Let's envade 2 people's privacy & read what is on their minds through the emails they sent one another. Worth sharing, few lines are really mushy, explanations makes no sense, on times deliriously hilarious....for those whose hearts were touched just holler.
Carrie,
I know you've heard that compliment all your life, but i'm quite sure this is the first time you had it in lousy Italian. :)
Sensya na ngayon lang ko reply. attend ako seminar. boring nga halos tinulugan ko lang...
Chances are, I'd already be in London by the time you get to Italy. And probably you'd still have that Youngblood book from L. Can we meet halfway, so I could get that book? Paris perhaps? hehehe.
Being your Ben is one of the most wonderful things that could ever happen to a guy. I'm just trying not to overreact. hehe. Sensya na kung masyado ako mausisa tungkol dito. I'm just searching for reasons why you made that choice. Di ko lang matanggap, napakaimposible. If I were you, I would'nt pick me! Anyway, salamat! Kung sinabi mo to noon, baka 1 month akong tulala. hahaha!
Alam mo, madami ding guys who consider you as their "Ben", without them knowing it, of course. Ano pakiramdam? :)
Re love... kahit na ubusin natin panahon natin kakaisip tungkol dito, in the end we would realize that love is meant to be felt, not analyzed. And i'm pretty sure (you're pretty, I'm sure :) that deep in your heart you believe this too.
(some lines deleted), ipinaubaya ko na ang bayan natin kay da king. :) ikaw, sino binoto mo?
napanood mo ba yung video kay Berg, yung sa Iraq? Grabe. Kawawa naman sya. Di para sa mahina sikmura.
(deleted lines)
Bout the book, nagbago na isip ko, I might get lost in Paris e, kunin ko na lang sayo. :) Pero kung mas convenient sayo na ibigay na lang kay L2, ikaw bahala. Parang hiya nga rin ako pakita sayo, mukha akong Iraqi insurgent. hehe.
Cge. I hope you'll have a fruitful week ahead.
Ingat din. :)
-----Original Message-----
From: Carrie [SMTP: @hotmail.com]
Sent: Tuesday, May 11, 2004 9:43 AM
To: Ben
Subject: RE: Ben & Carrie
Let's start from the bottom: La Juana e' bella .... my :) thank you eventhough this is not what you really mean hehehe. Bella is the Italian for beautiful..bello for handsome. Also you don't have to use "La" article yun eh for "The". I'm trying to learn Italian kase one day someday I want to go to Florence :) hahaha aga ng preparation ko. Tried my luck with Quenya pero hirap ng Elvish language eh kaya Italian na lang muna, as if I can go to Rivendel or wherever Elves are.
Being Ben is not really all about love. Your Ben can be your Dad, as I have mentioned it doesn't mean na you're in good terms with this person, pwedeng kaaway mo or someone from TV. It's a wide array of possibilities but that person is indeed influential in your life. You can not tell me that you're not my Ben cos' you haven't been there with me all my life. It's my choice & I'll decide who my Ben at this moment should be. I'm not trying to complicate your oh so beautiful life, I'm just pointing out that I am thankful for your existence in my life cos' I was able to realized a lot of things, end of story for you & my own story to continue, gets? I can say our treatment of thinking about life & love for that matter is totally the opposite. While you linger on your solitude to find peace & the so called "clarity" (which as you say will be all gone by the time you are sober) I find enlightenment when I discuss things with friends. Two heads are always better than one :), I have this core group that tackles life's special meaning (oy di to cult, just a bunch of friends which I call my support group). We disect things & it has always been fun cos' all our ideas varies talaga. I don't know I just enjoy being with them, talking, discussing, even arguing with them. Having them aroun is better than having a bf, yun nga lang not everybody thinks that way anymore, isa isa nang nagkaka Bf, we still hang out ngayon nga mas madami na cos' the bfs/gfs are kasama na but then when you're inlove minsan nabubulagan talaga...everything around you is flowery & magical kaya mas nagiging heated arguments namin... inlove vs. the miserable hehehe.
True love & one true love, speaks for itself...shouts the difference. All were designed by God, even the heartaches & pain & shame & gain & loss & grief...everything. And I am so sure that God knows what He is doing when He did all of those things to man. God will not allow someone to spend his /her life in misery, it's not God's way it is man's. Challenges are there to challenge, the same way that troubles are to there to cause trouble. Now it has never been in God's agenda to see people cry or feel bad but if it's for the greater good then He let it happen. It happens & those involve should do something about it, actually the solution is just there God just want people to open their eyes & to listen to their hearts more.
Whatever, this is so mushy ek ek, not my real style. Anyway, bumoto ka ba? I hope you voted for the conscientious choice. Nga pala L was mentioning some Young blood books that she'll give back to you daw. Pano yun? Bigay ko na lang kay L2? The books weren't with me yet. I'll just let you know once they are. Have a great day!
----Original Message Follows----
From: "Ben" < @____.com>
To: "Carrie" <@hotmail.com>
Subject: RE: Ben & Carrie D
Date: Fri, 7 May 2004 19:57:11 +0800
just kidding. of course i know you wont bail out of a conversation that way. not your style. hehe. i was just too eager to know what ben theory is all about. though i havent visited that felicity site yet (problem with our internet server), i think you've adequately explained it to me.
i apologize for not replying sooner, i had to revert to my "emotional settings" from 4 years ago para i'd be able to fully understand what you wrote, and maybe contribute something meaningful...
hirap naman pala maging ben. sana naman kung ano man naidulot ko sayo, e mabuti naman. pero alam mo, have you ever tried na kontrahin sarili mo? i mean yung you totally ignore yung lahat ng thoughts bout 'Ben'. minsan kasi this has nothing to do with the person, nagkataon lang na sya yung nandun nung time na you're experiencing something that's important to you. hindi sya influential sa buong pagkatao mo, but just to a certain aspect of it na in turn e masyado malaki epekto sa buhay mo.
i was once like you, always thinking about "love". i became so engrossed with the idea that some people begin to say i'm weird. i guess its just normal for us, from time to time, to be "in love" not with any person in particular, but with the concept of love itself. i'm not saying that i dont give much damn about it (galing ba to sa kanta?) these days, its just that i spend less time being alone now. solitude breeds this kind of thoughts (we'll, solitude plus a bottle of beer and you'll have more of these thoughts. the more beer you drink, the more enlightened you seem to become. the problem is, all these insights vanish the moment you become sober :). sa case ko lang to ha, i'm not saying na baka ganun din sa case mo. baka awayin mo ko. takot ko lang. hehehe
the butanding analogy is quite true. but then its just an observation. hindi sya enough para masatisfy nya yung craving for an explanation of someone like you. i bet upon hearing it from your friend M, e yung pumasok agad sa isip mo is one big "WHY?". complicated nga to, attempt akong mag-explain sa susunod.
Re the two choices... sa number 1 ako. la lang, gusto ko lang mag-disagree para may argument. hehe joke lang. yung view ko kasi is that true love is a gift from God. ala ng ibang source. and kung what you mean by 'true love' here is embodied in a certain person, pano na yung mga mabubuting tao na yung true love nila e pumanaw na? i dont think God would be so cruel to let them experience it for some time and then let them spend the rest of their life in misery.
o cge, sa susunod uli. mahirap magpaliwanag e. kung sayo intellectually stimulating lang to, sa kin pahirapan na. hehehe.
La (deleted) e' bella (_____is full of life). tama ba? di ko alam to e. italian ba to? hahaha
ingat!
-----Original Message-----
From: Carrie [SMTP: @hotmail.com]
Sent: Tuesday, May 04, 2004 1:09 PM
To: Ben S
Subject: Ben & Carrie
BEN THEORY Gist on the show Felicity: Felicity & Ben are classmates way back in HS & sobrang like ni F si B as in… Then nung malapit na graduation, F asked B to write something on her yearbook. So here's the link for the info on what the story really is: http://www.felicitypage.com/episode1.html
Ok? Then yung story it evolves around F nung college na sya, ups & downs of life & B is always there kaya naform yung thinking na in your life as a person, you always have that somebody that occupies a space in you (not just heart not just mind - you) & have helped you be what you are now. It doesn‘t necessarily mean na you' re in good terms with this person, close kayo or what but then influential sya sa buhay mo. You were asking if it' s true love, well in my opinion not really. You have something special for this person, you' re not sure if it' s love, true love, plain love but then he/she's important. Pretty complicated & unexplainable basta in your life you have a Ben, the person you do outrageous things for - alam man nya o hindi. The person that affects you the most -happiness man or wrath nafefeel mo towards this person. I'm not really making any sense but I guess I pointed out the things I wanted to tell. Basta yun yun. :) This is how the term "I have my Ben too" came into existence.
SEX and the CITY How many true love can one have in their life
ANSWERS: 1. at least one (I guess you're lucky) & 2. one IF YOU'RE LUCKY
My vote is for #2, not because I'm a pessimistic bitch but because it's how I view “love”. Sabi ni M, the friend of mine who went with me sa B, love daw is like a butanding... when you look for it iwas ng iwas ayaw pakita at ang ilap but then pag pagod ka na kakahabol & you've finally given up dadating & ididisplay sarili nya sayo. I'm not sure if it’s just to spite you or inspire you. Complicated, well life is so full of complications. Eto muna for now, I am still collecting my weird ideas & iprepresent ko sayo don't worry. Ganito ako, I make the mababaw stuffs seems so intellectually stimulating hehehe yung tipong kailang ng research & study talaga. La vita e' bella (life is beautiful) - you are loved always :)
Carrie,
I know you've heard that compliment all your life, but i'm quite sure this is the first time you had it in lousy Italian. :)
Sensya na ngayon lang ko reply. attend ako seminar. boring nga halos tinulugan ko lang...
Chances are, I'd already be in London by the time you get to Italy. And probably you'd still have that Youngblood book from L. Can we meet halfway, so I could get that book? Paris perhaps? hehehe.
Being your Ben is one of the most wonderful things that could ever happen to a guy. I'm just trying not to overreact. hehe. Sensya na kung masyado ako mausisa tungkol dito. I'm just searching for reasons why you made that choice. Di ko lang matanggap, napakaimposible. If I were you, I would'nt pick me! Anyway, salamat! Kung sinabi mo to noon, baka 1 month akong tulala. hahaha!
Alam mo, madami ding guys who consider you as their "Ben", without them knowing it, of course. Ano pakiramdam? :)
Re love... kahit na ubusin natin panahon natin kakaisip tungkol dito, in the end we would realize that love is meant to be felt, not analyzed. And i'm pretty sure (you're pretty, I'm sure :) that deep in your heart you believe this too.
(some lines deleted), ipinaubaya ko na ang bayan natin kay da king. :) ikaw, sino binoto mo?
napanood mo ba yung video kay Berg, yung sa Iraq? Grabe. Kawawa naman sya. Di para sa mahina sikmura.
(deleted lines)
Bout the book, nagbago na isip ko, I might get lost in Paris e, kunin ko na lang sayo. :) Pero kung mas convenient sayo na ibigay na lang kay L2, ikaw bahala. Parang hiya nga rin ako pakita sayo, mukha akong Iraqi insurgent. hehe.
Cge. I hope you'll have a fruitful week ahead.
Ingat din. :)
-----Original Message-----
From: Carrie [SMTP: @hotmail.com]
Sent: Tuesday, May 11, 2004 9:43 AM
To: Ben
Subject: RE: Ben & Carrie
Let's start from the bottom: La Juana e' bella .... my :) thank you eventhough this is not what you really mean hehehe. Bella is the Italian for beautiful..bello for handsome. Also you don't have to use "La" article yun eh for "The". I'm trying to learn Italian kase one day someday I want to go to Florence :) hahaha aga ng preparation ko. Tried my luck with Quenya pero hirap ng Elvish language eh kaya Italian na lang muna, as if I can go to Rivendel or wherever Elves are.
Being Ben is not really all about love. Your Ben can be your Dad, as I have mentioned it doesn't mean na you're in good terms with this person, pwedeng kaaway mo or someone from TV. It's a wide array of possibilities but that person is indeed influential in your life. You can not tell me that you're not my Ben cos' you haven't been there with me all my life. It's my choice & I'll decide who my Ben at this moment should be. I'm not trying to complicate your oh so beautiful life, I'm just pointing out that I am thankful for your existence in my life cos' I was able to realized a lot of things, end of story for you & my own story to continue, gets? I can say our treatment of thinking about life & love for that matter is totally the opposite. While you linger on your solitude to find peace & the so called "clarity" (which as you say will be all gone by the time you are sober) I find enlightenment when I discuss things with friends. Two heads are always better than one :), I have this core group that tackles life's special meaning (oy di to cult, just a bunch of friends which I call my support group). We disect things & it has always been fun cos' all our ideas varies talaga. I don't know I just enjoy being with them, talking, discussing, even arguing with them. Having them aroun is better than having a bf, yun nga lang not everybody thinks that way anymore, isa isa nang nagkaka Bf, we still hang out ngayon nga mas madami na cos' the bfs/gfs are kasama na but then when you're inlove minsan nabubulagan talaga...everything around you is flowery & magical kaya mas nagiging heated arguments namin... inlove vs. the miserable hehehe.
True love & one true love, speaks for itself...shouts the difference. All were designed by God, even the heartaches & pain & shame & gain & loss & grief...everything. And I am so sure that God knows what He is doing when He did all of those things to man. God will not allow someone to spend his /her life in misery, it's not God's way it is man's. Challenges are there to challenge, the same way that troubles are to there to cause trouble. Now it has never been in God's agenda to see people cry or feel bad but if it's for the greater good then He let it happen. It happens & those involve should do something about it, actually the solution is just there God just want people to open their eyes & to listen to their hearts more.
Whatever, this is so mushy ek ek, not my real style. Anyway, bumoto ka ba? I hope you voted for the conscientious choice. Nga pala L was mentioning some Young blood books that she'll give back to you daw. Pano yun? Bigay ko na lang kay L2? The books weren't with me yet. I'll just let you know once they are. Have a great day!
----Original Message Follows----
From: "Ben" < @____.com>
To: "Carrie" <@hotmail.com>
Subject: RE: Ben & Carrie D
Date: Fri, 7 May 2004 19:57:11 +0800
just kidding. of course i know you wont bail out of a conversation that way. not your style. hehe. i was just too eager to know what ben theory is all about. though i havent visited that felicity site yet (problem with our internet server), i think you've adequately explained it to me.
i apologize for not replying sooner, i had to revert to my "emotional settings" from 4 years ago para i'd be able to fully understand what you wrote, and maybe contribute something meaningful...
hirap naman pala maging ben. sana naman kung ano man naidulot ko sayo, e mabuti naman. pero alam mo, have you ever tried na kontrahin sarili mo? i mean yung you totally ignore yung lahat ng thoughts bout 'Ben'. minsan kasi this has nothing to do with the person, nagkataon lang na sya yung nandun nung time na you're experiencing something that's important to you. hindi sya influential sa buong pagkatao mo, but just to a certain aspect of it na in turn e masyado malaki epekto sa buhay mo.
i was once like you, always thinking about "love". i became so engrossed with the idea that some people begin to say i'm weird. i guess its just normal for us, from time to time, to be "in love" not with any person in particular, but with the concept of love itself. i'm not saying that i dont give much damn about it (galing ba to sa kanta?) these days, its just that i spend less time being alone now. solitude breeds this kind of thoughts (we'll, solitude plus a bottle of beer and you'll have more of these thoughts. the more beer you drink, the more enlightened you seem to become. the problem is, all these insights vanish the moment you become sober :). sa case ko lang to ha, i'm not saying na baka ganun din sa case mo. baka awayin mo ko. takot ko lang. hehehe
the butanding analogy is quite true. but then its just an observation. hindi sya enough para masatisfy nya yung craving for an explanation of someone like you. i bet upon hearing it from your friend M, e yung pumasok agad sa isip mo is one big "WHY?". complicated nga to, attempt akong mag-explain sa susunod.
Re the two choices... sa number 1 ako. la lang, gusto ko lang mag-disagree para may argument. hehe joke lang. yung view ko kasi is that true love is a gift from God. ala ng ibang source. and kung what you mean by 'true love' here is embodied in a certain person, pano na yung mga mabubuting tao na yung true love nila e pumanaw na? i dont think God would be so cruel to let them experience it for some time and then let them spend the rest of their life in misery.
o cge, sa susunod uli. mahirap magpaliwanag e. kung sayo intellectually stimulating lang to, sa kin pahirapan na. hehehe.
La (deleted) e' bella (_____is full of life). tama ba? di ko alam to e. italian ba to? hahaha
ingat!
-----Original Message-----
From: Carrie [SMTP: @hotmail.com]
Sent: Tuesday, May 04, 2004 1:09 PM
To: Ben S
Subject: Ben & Carrie
BEN THEORY Gist on the show Felicity: Felicity & Ben are classmates way back in HS & sobrang like ni F si B as in… Then nung malapit na graduation, F asked B to write something on her yearbook. So here's the link for the info on what the story really is: http://www.felicitypage.com/episode1.html
Ok? Then yung story it evolves around F nung college na sya, ups & downs of life & B is always there kaya naform yung thinking na in your life as a person, you always have that somebody that occupies a space in you (not just heart not just mind - you) & have helped you be what you are now. It doesn‘t necessarily mean na you' re in good terms with this person, close kayo or what but then influential sya sa buhay mo. You were asking if it' s true love, well in my opinion not really. You have something special for this person, you' re not sure if it' s love, true love, plain love but then he/she's important. Pretty complicated & unexplainable basta in your life you have a Ben, the person you do outrageous things for - alam man nya o hindi. The person that affects you the most -happiness man or wrath nafefeel mo towards this person. I'm not really making any sense but I guess I pointed out the things I wanted to tell. Basta yun yun. :) This is how the term "I have my Ben too" came into existence.
SEX and the CITY How many true love can one have in their life
ANSWERS: 1. at least one (I guess you're lucky) & 2. one IF YOU'RE LUCKY
My vote is for #2, not because I'm a pessimistic bitch but because it's how I view “love”. Sabi ni M, the friend of mine who went with me sa B, love daw is like a butanding... when you look for it iwas ng iwas ayaw pakita at ang ilap but then pag pagod ka na kakahabol & you've finally given up dadating & ididisplay sarili nya sayo. I'm not sure if it’s just to spite you or inspire you. Complicated, well life is so full of complications. Eto muna for now, I am still collecting my weird ideas & iprepresent ko sayo don't worry. Ganito ako, I make the mababaw stuffs seems so intellectually stimulating hehehe yung tipong kailang ng research & study talaga. La vita e' bella (life is beautiful) - you are loved always :)
Antipoem of a Life in Progress
I’m afraid the author of this poem will sue me of using his work without permission but then let me say my piece, I do not intend to insult or use your work in a negative manner I am infact giving this good poem justice. This is so nice & is worth publishing. You know who you are & you know I admire your work.
antipoem
this is not a poem but a grain of sand
crushed underneath you.
because you are a poem,
a poem that spirals like the inside of a seashell
the soft ocean murmur
echoing in your chambers of pearl.
while on the shore,
i am lost. searching for you.
this is not a poem
but a puddle that unmirrors you.
because you are a poem,
a poem taking the form of a storm
pelting the earth with silver slivers of sorrow
while beneath you,
i shiver with the sadness of a lost boy.
this is not poetry
because you are poetry
and i could not capture
you with my
frail net of verses.
antipoem
this is not a poem but a grain of sand
crushed underneath you.
because you are a poem,
a poem that spirals like the inside of a seashell
the soft ocean murmur
echoing in your chambers of pearl.
while on the shore,
i am lost. searching for you.
this is not a poem
but a puddle that unmirrors you.
because you are a poem,
a poem taking the form of a storm
pelting the earth with silver slivers of sorrow
while beneath you,
i shiver with the sadness of a lost boy.
this is not poetry
because you are poetry
and i could not capture
you with my
frail net of verses.
Monday, May 30, 2005
Another or your quote + Bicol
I know that you may find this absurd that I keep on publishing your quotes, wala lang I just find it shareable & though it is sometimes just icky mushy stuff post ko pa rin.
May 24, 2005
...I'm happy cos in the end I end up with the girl I really wanted, needed and love.
I have been to Bicol last weekend, wala lang nagpasakit lang ng katawan, I stayed on the road longer than at our house, grabe parusa byahe but it was worth it. An hour of chikahan with my folks is priceless. Even half an hour of kulitan with my nephew was worth every pagod, plus I had the chance to eat home cooked meals by my Ma, and the superb back rubs from my pamangkins whom with a P50 bribe, will massage you until you're zzz'ing. How I wish I could just stay at our home in the province with my parents forever.
May 24, 2005
...I'm happy cos in the end I end up with the girl I really wanted, needed and love.
I have been to Bicol last weekend, wala lang nagpasakit lang ng katawan, I stayed on the road longer than at our house, grabe parusa byahe but it was worth it. An hour of chikahan with my folks is priceless. Even half an hour of kulitan with my nephew was worth every pagod, plus I had the chance to eat home cooked meals by my Ma, and the superb back rubs from my pamangkins whom with a P50 bribe, will massage you until you're zzz'ing. How I wish I could just stay at our home in the province with my parents forever.
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