Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Wisdom of a Jittery soon to be Birthday Girl


Why call it wisdom when it would just pop out at a very unwise time. I have been battling with this one & only wisdom tooth I have for 2 years now. For someone who didn’t experience having a decayed tooth even in childhood, toothaches are really new to me. Toothache in a sense that in my case it is not really the tooth that is aching it is the gum where the wisdom tooth wants to emerge that is in real pain. I remembered 2 years ago when a tiny white can be spotted on my rearmost gum, it was awfully painful that I have to go to a dentist to have it checked if it’s impacted or what. After the x-ray (the tiny cute film is something hehehe), the dentist advised that it’s coming out alright and that the pain is normal and I should not worry about it. 2 years have passed & several dental appointments later the tooth is still not in its full growth. It just doesn’t feel very wise anymore. It’s like an unwanted visitor cos it’ll grow then it’ll sleep again then after 2 months it’s on its feet again. GRRR!

Dino would always call it BIRTHDAY JITTERS, it happens to me every year. 2 years ago Dino told me to just let my day happen and don’t fuss over it. Whether I like it or not another year will add to my life and I really can’t do anything about it. It always happens weeks before someone’s birthday when she or he would just feel the world’s burden is on his or her shoulders. I know you guys can relate to it. It is the time when you try to look back at your failures, mistakes and disappointments. We spend a lot of time over the sad moments than focusing on what we have accomplished in the year that passed. Frankie’s voice is lingering… fun is fleeting, it is the pain that give life its meaning. Why am I talking about all of this rubbish because I am having one. I am having the so-called birthday jitters and true enough - Dino is right, I really can’t do anything about it. Life will go on.

Dave is singing in the background, singing his melodious Dreamgirl. I remembered I wrote something about the Dream Guy days ago. Guys think about it din pala. It sounds so complicated but in reality we all just think about the same thing. And it seems that Dave’s dream girl is a meantime girl, or was it Dave who’s a meantime guy? Pathetic world hehehe here’s an excerpt:

"Still you're my best friendand after a good, good drunk you and me wake up and make loveafter a deep sleep where I was dreaming I was dreaming of a Dreamgirl Dreamgirl Dreamgirl (Yeah) Dreamgirl I was feeling like a creep as I watched you asleep face down in the grass in the park in the middle of hot afternoon Your top was untied and I thought how nice it'd be to follow the sweat down your spine.

Caught by a wave my back to the ocean. It knocks me off my feet and just as I find my footing here you come again! Dreamgirl, oh"

Okay back to my real mababaw self, songs galore at lyrics ito. I like this new song from Straylight Run, here’s some of their Existentialism (on a prom night) lyrics:


when the sun came up
we were sleeping in
sunk inside our blankets
sprawled across the bed
and we were dreaming
there are moments when i know it
and the world revolves around us
and we're keeping it
keeping it all going
this delicate balance
vulnerable
all knowing
(sing like you think no one's listening)
you would kill for this
just a little bit
so, sing me something soft
sad and delicate
or loud and out of key
sing me anything
we're glad for what we've got
done with what we've lost
our whole lives laid out right in front of us

Ang deep no? After 2 of the band members (John & I dunno who else hehehe) left Taking Back Sunday they started a new one. It’s better this way dumami good emo bands.

Great Finds
P500 bill from the bottom-est part of my bag. Laundered and all hehehe just like my pants incident.
My poem book, naluluma, inaamag at nagkapunit punit na. If I have the guts, I’ll post some of my yucky works here hehehe.
CD case from Gabs, Am Idol pa yun hehehe
Websites galore: try
www.bored.com & www.howstuffworks.com

I really want to have a pan hanger na paganito, one time I saw sa lifestyle channel how to make one kaso I can't do it naman dahil di kaya ng powers ko ang mag mala-karpintero kaya eto nakuntento na lang ako sa picture, hay.

2 comments:

Jenny said...

Pan hanger na mataas? Pano ko kaya kukuhanin ung pans na kailangan ko? 1. Tumalon-tumalon parang may pabitin 2. Umakyat sa pinakamalapit na table at tumalon sabay abot ng pan na kailangan. Death defying ito! 3. Kumuha ng chair n tall enough para maabot mo iyong pans. Mas safe ito. 4. Better yet, huwag mo na lang kaya ilagay sa itaas ang mga pans dahil bansot naman ako? hehehe

Anne said...

My dear since kitchen mo kaw bahala sa taas hehehe pwedeng hanggang tuhod mo lang if you prefer, ang gagawin mo yuyukuin mo pa bara makapili ng pan to use pag mali nasungkit mo balik uli, ulit ulitin hanggang makuha nag pan na kailangan... hmmm kaserola na lang kase para safe, di kailangang isabit sa pan hanger na sky high sa taas :-)